Monday, December 12, 2011

The Writing Mojo is back!

This semester I have had to write several papers for school. I still have one paper left. Not looking forward to writing it, but I know when it is completed I will be free to write what I want!

I recently read by best friends mom's memoir and it made me begin to think about my own life. I thought about what it would be like to write about my own ups and downs, and this is a project I want to explore. Just thinking about it and what memories I would want to include helped me remember things I had forgotten. This would be more a personal project, but I think any writing experience will help me become a better writer.

The other day I got out on the other side of the bed, different than the normal left side I get out of. I sleep in the middle of my bed so it doesn't really matter what side I get out of, but this simple action sparked an idea for a story, a story which I feel would be better represented in a screenplay form. I've never written a screenplay, but I have thought about it. I still need to sit down with a notebook and brainstorm more about the concept of this story, but I am excited about the challenge of learning something new.

Not sure about other writers, but for me, I know I'm in a writing mood when I begin to narrate things in my head. Such as, when making my breakfast I narrate my actions. "She then scraped the butter on the toast, eager to take a bite." I haven't been doing this for a while, so focused and stressed about other things than fun writing. When I caught myself doing it the other day, I was overjoyed! The fact that I was doing it without forcing it made me feel like I got my writing mojo back! Now, to conquer the last ten page paper so I can start on these two fun projects!!

Friday, November 18, 2011

Should have done this improvment plan a long time ago!!

I've been doing my improvement plan now for a week and its going great! I haven't bitten my nails in a week people!!! if your a nail biter, you know how hard that is!!

I have always wanted to make improvements to myself, and have attempted a variety of them over the years. Mainly weight loss stuff. One issue I think I ran across in the past was trying too much. Changing all things at once. By focusing on just a few changes and knowing what changes I want to make once I complete the ones I'm working on now, gives me a finish line for my current goals and a push to keep working so I can make it to the next one. :)

I had a good self esteem before I started my little scheme to improve myself, but now, after just a week, I feel like I could do anything! Mainly, because I can! lol We as humans always come up with excuses for why we can't reach our goals or dreams. In my philosophy class we talked about how not doing something is the same as doing something and failing. I talked to a friend about this concept and she said that's why she never raised her hand in school, because she was afraid she might be wrong and 'fail.'

People, don't be scared of failing! I love taking risks and challenging myself, I know there is a risk of failure, but I won't know if I don't try right!? As writers who want to be published I'm probably preaching to the choir; we all know there is a chance our novels won't make the cut, but what good are they as saved drafts on our computers if we just leave them that way?

Okay, I'm off my soap box now. lol I want this post to be encouraging, so please take it as such. Don't worry about failing, because even if you do fail you at least know you tried and you've eliminated one method of reaching that goal. :)

Happy weekend everyone!

Friday, November 11, 2011

My Imporove Joy Plan

New Year's is still a ways away, and that's when most people kick in their resolutions. Since I'm single again, (which is fine) my minds been thinking about all the changes I want to do with myself and how I organize things.
My car broke down a few weeks ago and it really made me look at my money situation. I am now trying to come up with the best budget and plan for saving and spending my money. So these are the types of things included in my plan.

Writing everyday is another thing. I don't do this, and that's not acceptable if I plan to be a writer! I'm still not sure the best way to track this, but I feel this is something that needs to begin to happen.

Now, this one is kind of embarrassing, so be nice, but I have always bit my nails. I got some of that polish yesterday that you put on that tastes bad and yeah, it works. This is another part of my plan. I know I will feel so proud of myself for accomplishing these goals and seeing myself improve and take charge of the things I don't like. What's the point of sitting on your butt waiting for others to make changes for you? It's not going to happen like that. If you don't like the way things are-change them!

So, since I am writing everyday now I should be posting more. Please feel free to keep me accountable!

Monday, November 7, 2011

Ch-ch-changes!

So I like dated a guy for a few weeks. It was an experience I'm glad I had. It helped me learn even more about myself! Which is always an awesome thing. I ended it because I felt there were just to many differences between our personalities that wouldn't go away.

I'm also getting to the point in the semester at school where all the big papers are starting to be talked about. I will have a 8-12 page paper due in all three of my classes. This is not something that really bothers me, except for the fact I am just now feeling like I want to work on the re-writes on my first novel. Guess that will just have to wait for Christmas break. :/

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Online dating analogy


So I've taken up online dating again. I was talking to a friend of mine the other day who is using online dating as well and we were talking about how overwhelming it is to have so many options. I feel as a female especially it is overwhelming because when you get over ten guys a day asking to talk to you and get to know you how do you pick which ones to get to know?

Well, for me anyway, I read their profiles, look at their pictures, and if he looks like he has a brain, and writes like he has a brain, I will respond.

Here's my analogy though. It's pretty awesome. Okay, so everyone has seen The Bachelor right? Well, with online dating, I feel like I'm the Bachelorette. I have a plethora of men wanting to date me and for me to give them a rose. Except, each of those men is not only a contestant on my show, but the main dude on his own version of The Bachelor. So, all of us are the main person on our own show, and contestants on all the others.

Makes for a confusing web of Bachelors and Bachelorettes....

Sunday, September 25, 2011

My first wrestling Match

So yesterday I went with my best bud to see a friend of hers wrestle. I wasn't totally sure what to expect since I had never been a huge fan of wrestling but she's my friend and she didn't want to go alone so what the heck right?

This my friends, was quite an experience! I had some pros and cons but overall I had an enjoyable time. First off, saw a lot of abs, so no complaints there! That was pretty much the whole pro section, lol, but, it brought on a lot of thoughts for me. I watch the show Mad Men, and it's based in the 60's. I get infuriated when the men on the show subject women and make them objects (most of the time in front of the women as well). I felt like that was what I was experiencing last night at the match. It made me think of things from a different perspective. I'm not saying it is okay, it can be demeaning and just because someone has a nice body doesn't mean anything really besides just that.

On the cons side I can't say I was a huge fan of the fake. It made me want to see some real punches and hear the sounds and see the blood flying! Then I had to take a second to just realize that I was wanting to see real punches and blood flying! I'm not a violent person at all, so it really surprised me. I close my eyes in movies when the dudes are fighting, but yet when at a live match I want to see something that isn't fake? I just felt like in "real life" people would fight different. You would do your best to get back up and keep going and only be knocked out when you black out.

I set out to just have a fun night with my friend (which did happen!) but I also in turn learned some interesting things about myself. I too can objectify people, and I like punches to be real. My question to everyone out there is have you ever learned something about yourself from an unexpected event? What are your thoughts on objectifying people? Is it only bad until you find yourself doing it?

Monday, August 29, 2011

Totally Content

I am writing now from my new home! A lot of changes have happened to me in the past month. So many blessings I can't even contain my happiness or excitement for them all! Contentment has been something I felt was missing in my life in the past. I have felt for the past two weeks or so a sense of contentment in how things are in my life right now. I'm in a new place with awesome roommates, my car works, I got great friends to hang out with, I got a job I love and make more than enough money to cover my bills, I love the church I'm attending, my room is decorated just like I like it. I honestly want for nothing. This is a feeling I'm so not used to feeling! I don't know how long it will last, but I am amazed at how it feels and hope it stays around. Each day is a happy day and even when bad things happen, like getting broken down in a city two hours from your own, it's not the end of the world. Are you content? Does everything have to fall into place for a person to be content? Do you think its more of a feeling or a state of mind?

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

One life experience down...only a million left..

Yesterday I had the opportunity to go to a book signing of an author I greatly admire. It also just happened to be my first time going to a book signing. If your wondering who the author was it was George R. R. Martin, who is a noted fantasy writer.

Seeing so many people there and excited for an author was very interesting to me. I hope to be published one day and maybe even do a book signing myself at some point. I'm not a super social person but I love learning about others, and I'm sure Martin got asked a plethora of questions. As an unpublished author, as I'm sure others like me do as well, you find yourself imagining what others will think of your stories and how they will be received with the general public. I may never reach the sucess that George R. R. Marin, has, but if I can bring enjoyment to some through my stories than it is worth every minute of writing. I enjoy it so much and I think you can tell when an author is writing from the heart. I like to think my writing shows this as well.

I think seeing a book signing and how a more tangible way for an author to interact with their readers was a great experience. I know it is an experience that will stick with me forever.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

New Poem

Crazy week, but I think things are finally settling for me. I'm not one to read poetry but when I am feeling something strong it is one of the most helpful ways for me to express myself. I wrote a poem this week, it's a religious one, which mine always seem to tend to be. No title as of yet but here it is:

I turned from You,
when I needed You most.
My Heart was hurting,
and I blamed You.
You stood by and waited,
as I wallowed in my sin.
You never left my side,
though I refused to look at Your face.
As my life grew more cold,
I could still feel You there.
Waiting with open arms,
to receive Your lost child again.
I didn't want to admit I needed You,
I wanted to be strong.
Everything I did turned to dust.
Till I was left naked and alone.
You picked me up and washed me.
Cleansing me with Your blood.
Washing away my transgressions,
till I was clean and whole again.
As I stood up anew, I
fell into Your arms.
You embraced me as Your lost sheep,
finally home and returned.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Life Changes

As a child I never imagined that my life would be like it is now. You never imagine all the hiccups and mountains/molehills you have to go over. I had to learn a hard lesson this past week, and it wasn't easy, but I know my life is going to be better for it.

I feel like you should give everything your all, no matter what. Give everyone a chance, and see where things lead. Leave no questions unanswered and have no regrets. This is how I want to live my life now, and I'm excited about what is in store for me with this new attitude of mine.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Words

I love England. I have never been there, but am thinking of going this fall. A friend asked me why I liked it so much, I didn't have an answer. The next day it came to me. I love the words they use. Not necessarily their accents, though I'm sure all American's can agree that English accents are flippin' cool, but the words they use in their vocabulary.

I love Jane Austen and her novels, but why? The stories are great, but the language and how they speak to each other is what makes me fall in love with it.

I also realized that the way I communicate best with others is through words. I'm not much of a gift giver, but I like to listen and use words that express really meaning. I feel like American's are somewhat sloppy with their words, especially when texting, and there is no beauty in them anymore.
I don't talk like I just walked out of a Jane Austen novel, but I believe that is where my love for England originated from. I tend to speak more formal in writing than I do in person as well.

Do words mean a lot to you? As writers I think we are more drawn to words than others, since we use them to express our ideas. Let me know what you think!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Writing after a long break

Before I started the novel I am writing now, I hadn't really written for over a year. I mean I wrote papers for school and a poem every now and again, but no novel. I didn't even read that much either. Now, we all have our reasons for taking a break, I know I did. I wasn't emotionally ready to write again and I didn't have a story in my mind that I felt was worth writing. When the story came though, I wanted to write it.

Somehow, writing isn't coming to me like it did over a year ago. I'm not eager to get to the computer to type out as many words as I can. After a month of writing I only have a little over 10,000 words to show for it. I read a post by Jamie Glover about writing after an absence and it really helped me. My goal now is to just write a little each day. Even if it is just a page. I think about my story all the time-I love it and I think its great! Totally needs to be told and I think it's awesome I get to be the one to tell it. Since reading that post I have written each day. Not a lot, but the little bits will start to add up and I know that this writing experience is going to be different from my last one, but that is okay.

So, taking it a day at a time, a page at a time, I'm moving on and at some point this story will be completed. I'm excited for that day and I hope at some point I will be able to squeeze out more then just a few pages a day. Has there ever been a time in your life where you tried to pick something back up, but it just wasn't the same?

Monday, June 13, 2011

Books and tv

I just started watching the show True Blood. The show is based on books by Charlaine Harris. I haven't read the books yet since I am still reading the series A Song of Ice and Fire by George R. R. Martin. Which just also happens to be a new show on HBO.

I know as authors we always dream of our works turning into movies or tv shows, but that's not what I want to talk about.

I don't know about everyone else, but when I watch a tv show and love it, or a movie, and then find out there are books out there that they are based on, I totally read them. Maybe not right away (like now, I'm in the third book of the series and its over a 1,000 pages, so needless to say it's taking me a while) but I always end up reading them at some point. Before an Ice and Fire I read the Dexter books by Jeff Lindsay.

Does everyone do this? Read the books the movie and tv shows are based on? I know a lot do, I mean, I do work in a bookstore, but I want to know if its something you run out and buy right after seeing it.

(Just had a thought-my bookstore is right next door to a movie theater.)

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Summer days..

So, the pool at my apt building is open now. :D I'm going to get a good tan this summer!

I've been working a lot, as well as reading. I have about 10,000 words written on my new novel, and its always in my head, but for some reason, I can't seem to get lost in my story when writing it. After about 8 pages of writing I'm ready to stop and do something else. I'm not sure if this is normal, or bad, or what. It just is how it is. I want to be able to finish writing my novel by the end of this summer, before I go back to college this fall. I'm really going to have to step my game up to make that goal though.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

So, this is the picture of MY new tattoo!! I've been wanting one on my wrist for a long time, several years in fact. And now, I have it! I can't even put into words how excited I am about it! I love it and I couldn't be happier!


I have always been drawn to tattoos. When I was a girl I thought boys who had them were so hot. For a while I never expected to get tattoos myself, but I got my first one, a red star, last September. I have a feeling I will end up with at least five. All small for the most part, no sleeves or anything. For me, I wait to get a tattoo when I know the place and picture I want. Even then, I don't go get it right away, I wait to make sure the idea sticks in my head and doesn't change, I mean, tattoo's are permanent. I realize they are not for everyone and that's fine, I like them and feel like they help describe who I am.

Another fear most people have is having tattoo's that show. (This new one is on my wrist, my other is on my shoulder) I certainly see the logic in that, but mine is small enough that a bracelet could cover most of it, and I don't see myself going into fields that have taboos on visible tattoos.

So that's my tattoo story, if you have on feel free to share!

Monday, May 9, 2011

Exercise Monday

Today is the day I started my new workout schedule. I walked two miles and I hope to continue to do so each day this week. I also signed up for a free class this Sat morning that I think will give me a boost in the exercising department as well.

Each week I'm going to listen to a new-to-me-band. This week is: Mumford and Sons.

Tomorrow after I do my workout of course, I'm planning a writing day. I'm really excited for it. I'm hoping to pass the 10,000 word mark. Shouldn't be to hard.

So, here is a question I would like to ask everyone, what music do you listen to when you work out? Do you change it up or stick with the same playlist/cd?

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Could this get more awesome!?


So, I won a book!

Shelli loves to give away books on her blog and I got to win a copy of this book for writers.

If you haven't checked out her blog before you so should. Just click on her name.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Music minute

So, I wanted to use this post to highlight the music I'm digging right now.

When I heard this song on the radio, I knew who it was and I couldn't have been more pleased. I went and got her albums and have been jamming for a while to them. Who is it?

Adele!

Every song is awesome and I just can't seem to get enough. So, if you haven't heard of her check it out and let me know what you think!!


I spent this weekend with friends and time with my boyfriend. It was nice. No writing was done but that's going to be amended soon. The next two chapters of by book are swimming in my head so I doubt I can keep myself from writing them for long.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Day One

So, today is my first day of writing. I have managed to spill out 2,425 words so far. Enough for my first chapter.

I'm not sure if I will keep going today, but I believe a break from the computer will be in order at some point. This new story, which still does not have a name, is coming along nicely. I'm writing it in third person, a first for me, so I'm a littler nervous about that. I'm afraid it will end up reading like a screen play and not a novel. I have a lot of dialog. I don't feel this is such a bad thing though, because I always love stories with lots of dialog and find myself skipping to it as well.

So far, I'm pleased with myself and am ready for this story to take shape. I know last time I wrote I had people who read my work and helped me. I am all for that this time as well so if you are interested let me know either on here or facebook me, or e-mail me.

I have to work all day tomorrow so I doubt any writing will be able to be squeezed into it. But since school is over for now I'm going to take total advantage of my new free time. :D

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Getting into the swing of things

I finished my last paper for school today, and am finally free to read and write what I want. :D

I have had an idea for a story for a few months now, just been working it out in my head, and now its finally time to start typing away at it! I made myself wait to write it so not to interfere with my grades. Writing, for me at least, its very consuming and takes up lots of time. I wanted to make sure I had one less commitment. So, this summer break I hope to crank out this book! Plan to hear lots from me on this blog and Facebook and twitter. I might even plan a giveaway or two! Online world be prepared...I am coming at you with full force!

There are a few staples I have to have when preparing to write a book. 1. An empty notebook. Mine is red (my favorite color) and my mom gave it to me. I use a notebook to keep track of plot lines and use it to write my outline for the story. It is only a one subject so I have a feeling I might have to buy another one at some point. 2. A good pen. I found one of my favorite pens today right in time! I like pens where the ink flows and goes on smooth. 3. A computer! A person who really believes in my bought me a computer about a year ago just for my writing and I'm glad I can finally say its going to be used for that.

Tomorrow the writing begins...to bad I don't have a title for this new book yet.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Brand new story idea!

So, I've been watching the history channel a lot and seeing and learning some cool things. :D The shows have also given me a great story idea! My boyfriend helped me plot it out and I'm totally excited about this project! I plan to start researching asap as this novel will need a lot of it. Once I think I have enough info in my brain to start writing things out, I will let you guys know! My hope is to be starting the first draft by summertime. If you would like to be a reader of mine and help me along my way just let me know! I am always welcome to as much help as I can get!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Seeing Stars

I've been out of commission for the past few weeks or so. I got a concussion at work and have been taking some time off. My headaches have finally gone down and I've been spending my time sleeping, watching multiple seasons of The Office, reading, and spending time with friends.

I've also been advised to find a new job, one where I won't get hurt. As hard as it is for me to want to leave my current job, helping kids, I do want to keep myself safe. I've been spending time on my homework a lot as well.

With the time off and a few more weeks off ahead of me, I feel the itch to work on my writing. I am planning to re-write the novel I have written, and this time off may be just what I needed to get me back into the game.

The future is looking bright and I'm excited to see what unfolds!